First race of the season! Red Nose Half Marathon in Columbus, GA. January 5th, 2019.
I was not at all ready. One 9 mile run and one 10 mile run on the books prior to this race. Paces had been off, I was on my third weekend of traveling in a row, averaging 5 hours of sleep for the week leading up to it, working 10+ hours at work, and pushing way too hard for the off season. These aren't excuses. I am not trying to be "woe is me." I am trying to mentally heal.
I started way too fast and fizzled out beyond belief. My stomach was doing jumping jacks, my head was throbbing by mile 2, and my legs were shot. Hooray for not being able to pace! Overall time was 2:06. Not terrible. Really not. But when I wanted to go sub 2 hours, not good enough.
I need to get out of my own way. I can't PR every race. It's not a thing. I need to accept that. Let it go, brain!! It's not safe, it's not healthy, it's not ok.
Find the peace. Find the joy. Find the power.
