Anxiety

I have anxiety. It's pretty severe at times. It causes many issues in varying degrees in every aspect of my life. I'm 98% sure it's a contributing factor to my GI issues, I lash out at people, more specifically one person who continues to love me despite my nonsense, and it makes my insomnia borderline out of control.

In regards to triathlons, it causes me to push too hard. I go "balls to the walls" in every aspect. All out swims, all out rides, and all out runs. That works for shorter distances. But when the goal is Kona, that just isn't an option anymore. I was wildly overtrained and fatigued last year, and if something doesn't give, history is going to repeat itself.

That being said, I took the steps to change this. I have a coach who is going to plan my workouts so I don't have to stress about them. While still long distance, I have an incredible support system in my S.O. and all of our mutual friends. And most importantly, I have begun the search for a therapist. I need the help right now. And I am not ashamed to say as such.